It is a Wednesday morning, it’s snowing big fat white snowflakes outside and I am sitting in front of my computer screen sipping coffee. Sounds perfect, doesn't it? Last week I started this blog because I wanted to show a wider variety of my work; I travel, I shoot live bands and I shoot people, from all walks of life. Not just my fitness professionals, but real people. I have been lucky in my life to have friends that have not only given me their faces but also their time and trust to help me practice my profession.
There was a time when I had given up entirely on photography, at the time I blamed my camera, that it wasn't giving me the images I want, but the truth is, I wasn't taking the photos I wanted. My heart wasn't in it and there was no point trying if it wasn't. Photography is a very intimate art form. Now, stay with me, I might get a little existential on you, but it comes from the heart. When I shoot, I am showing you how I see the world. We may both be in the same place and time, we may both have a camera in our hands; what we see may be entirely different. That is what I love about photography; I get to share how I see the world. It’s pretty romantic when you think about it.
That being said, last year I did a photo project every Sunday for fifty-two Sunday’s, which I appropriately named #52Sundays. The idea was to post a self portrait, or selfie, every Sunday for the year. To take a step above, this photo could not be an everyday Kim Kardashian selfie. Going back to a time before forward facing camera’s on your phone, photographers have been creating creative self portraits for decades. It wasn't about just showing off, it was about pushing your own boundaries and being honest to yourself and your audience.
There were weeks when I was so down that it was too difficult to come up with an idea and it would be closer to midnight by the time the idea popped into my head. It’s difficult to dig deep sometimes I find what’s bothering you, or what is causing your anxiety, but I stuck by the project nonetheless. The weeks when things were going my way, I felt like I could see the positive mood and emotion in my photos. Self exploration is an ongoing project whether there is a camera in front of me or not, and I have never been very good at articulating my feelings. Even saying the word “feelings” makes me uncomfortable but I find comfort in front of my camera.
This project was not about ego, it’s an honest reflection on how far I have come in life as a woman, as a photographer and as a member of a small community. It is also about commitment, I spent an entire year focusing on Sunday and making sure that I did my best to come up with an honest portrait. Some weeks were easier than others, but I feel at the end of the year my images speak louder volume than I could have articulated. I am proud of the work that I did and look forward to the next project. I know that this post is long, I wasn’t able to fit every week in, but I did my best to show my best work over the course of the 2015. Thank you for reading this post and thank you to everyone who liked and enjoyed my journey, it was worth it.
Love 'til later,